Zach is Potty Trained!

I keep saying I am going to become a blogger again. I keep thinking I have nothing more to write. Matt (see ninetynine balloons link at left) and Heather (see link at left) seem to write feelings and thoughts that are just where Justin and I are walking.

For all intents, our lives are completely normal. I am fully back at work. Justin is fully dad. We are letting our lives be changed by this event--but not defined by it.

Every day when I leave Zach says "don't go hopital" (I left out the "s" because he does) or "don't go office". While it saddens me, I know it is just a part of that almost-a-3-year-old stage. He really is potty trained! Our big boy that we thought would NEVER get out of diapers just DID IT a week ago! We were in NC staying at my parents house. Justin's sister and her husband were with us as well as some friends. Neither of the couples that were with us have kids yet so I know they thought I was TOTALLY insane when I ran out of the bathroom yelling "Zachy went poopy on the potty!!!!". We put a votive candle on a cookie and told Zach it was his promised party. Then, he did it again last Tuesday, at home, so I bought some cupcakes with blue icing. I wouldn't recommend blue icing. By Wednesday, his poops were GREEN. Bright green. But, most of his poops have been on the potty since then and, except for nighttime, he is in big boy underwear. Wow!

Heidi, my sister, is 18 weeks pregnant. She had her ultrasound today--her second one, actually. Yes, for most pregnant women the only goal of today is to know "is it a boy or a girl?!?!?" (I know the answer but I'm not sure if she wants me to post it). Most important for us, though, was "does everything look OK?". On her 11 week scan there was an abnormality that can suggest a problem. They couldn't get enough views of the heart today to tell us it is normal. If you don't know my sis she has 2 kiddos--Lauren (5 1/2) and Sam (2 1/2). Sam has Down Syndrome and had Tetrology of Fallot--a Congenital Heart Defect. So, we feel like we've had our "share" of issues in this family. Everything that was seen today was normal. We are going to continue asking God for a healthy heart and a healthy child.

We know that modern medicine says these (Luke with HLHS, Sam with DS/TOF) are random events. We know that what we deserve is---nothing. Absolutely nothing. God has given us SALVATION. ETERNITY. How can we ask for more? Yet, I am pleading before his throne for a healthy child for Heidi & Spence. I hate that they have spent the last 8 weeks discussing "What if our child has....". It isn't fair.

Okay, don't make me go there. I KNOW life isn't fair. I know there is no such thing as fair. I know God didn't promise us fair. I know that the tragedy in my life doesn't even begin to compare with the heartache that others have experienced but I can still feel it sometimes. I'm just glad that my faith doesn't rely on my feelings.